Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Am thinking of either stopping blogging altogether or perhaps going private as I never seem to have much to say these days and very little of what I do have to say is weight related - just me blabbering on about my life with Rachel. Also once I am back at work I will have very little time to come online as when I get home it will be quality time with Rachel and then once shes in bed, its time for washing the nappies, organising her bag for the next day, making lunches etc...

Am not looking forward to going back to work in two weeks time - just gotta win lotto real soon! Don't have any decent clothes to wear to work nor do I have any comfy shoes to wear and no money to buy them either!

Am sick of aching all over continuously and living on pain killers! Would kill for a regular massage or Osteopath treatment but can't afford it so I just keep on taking pain killers.

Am not succeeding in my 12 week challenge - weight is back up to what it was over a week ago :( Am not saying I am giving up on the weight loss side of things but it is getting me down these days. I know these things take time but I have very little energy or motivation these days as I am always so tired... and yes I know if I did more exercise I would be more motivated but its one of those vicious circles if you know what I mean...

Right, Rachel is just waking up so best I get moving and get ready for the next feeding round.. and she won't go back down again now until after her bath and bottle so that is about 8.30/9pm!

Ciao

11 comments:

Kate said...

Karen - having a new baby is so so tough, and the fact you are having to go back to work in 2 weeks is obviously stressful. My advice as a Mum and friend, should you choose to take it is - try and maintain until you settle in at work or until Rachel is 6 months old. Give yourself a break - you don't need to do it all right now.

And re: your blog - I far prefer hearing about babies over weight loss any day, hehe!! (But that's just me!)

Kris said...

Hi Karen,

I am a bit of a lurker but check in regularly.

You don't know what being tired means until you have a baby and unfortunately theres not a lot you can do about it and it doesn't go away for a while but you have to do what you can. It is a shame you have to go back to work so soon but I know that not everyone gets to stay home.

As for your Blog I agree with Kate I like hearing about babies too. I have made the decsion to go private with my Blog just cause I wanted to write my thoughts and feelings and be totally honest and not be judged.

I am sure you will make the right decision for you because in the end you are the important person.

Good Luck and Take Care
Kris :)

Anne said...

Totally agree with Kate's comments about the weight issue, just too stressfull to worry about when you are facing up to returing to work.

Hope you don't give up your blog - I enjoy hearing about Rachel.

Anonymous said...

Dont give up ... anything ... especially you! mmmmmwaaaaaaaaa

Anonymous said...

Hey hun... You know what is right for you. You know my email so feel free to vent aye as I know you would.

I love reading ya hun... and have for years.

I think concentrating on Rachel and work and hubby are a good thing but I don't know what you mean about only talking about little Rachel... it is great hearing how she is growing and face it my friend she is your life now and that is interesting to us.

Love ya
Keep blogging hun.

CM

Anonymous said...

I'm a bit of a lurker, don't post comments much, but have been reading your blog for literally years now! Time flies. I for one would be gutted if you stopped blogging, because I too love hearing about Rachel, and what a joy she is and how much she has/is changing your lives for the better. Going back to work will no doubt be hard, but you'll get there! Take care, Sally.

Tania said...

Hey Karen, firstly cut yourself some slack! You're doing great, it's hard work getting used to being a first time mum, even harder when you have to face going back to work as well. Somehow it all falls into place, maybe because it has to! In five weeks time my baby will turn 1 and I still haven't got the weight loss side of things right, but I haven't stopped trying and that's what counts. I think you're doing a great job and I for one would miss reading your journal if you stopped writing it. But it's only worth doing if you're doing it for yourself.

Paula said...

Hi Karen

I too enjoy touching base with how you, Steph and Rachel are doing when I get the chance. And as for the content of your blogs, don't ever apologise for focussing on Rachel - you rightfully deserve to be very proud of her and her achievements. People chose to read blogs, and if they aren't interested, then they don't need to read them - they can move on.

However, having said that, I think at the end of the day, you have to do whatever suits you at the moment - maybe that will be taking a wee break from your blog (although I'm secretly hoping you won't take that option) or maybe just posting once a week (or whatever suits you at the time).

Have a wonderful week ahead. *Hugs*

- Paula (Christchurch)

Anonymous said...

You can't live on painkillers. That's no example to set to your daughter. You need to look after yourself!
First paycheck make sure you book a massage ok.

If you really don't want to have baby in care have you explored the option of selling your property and making a priority of staying home for longer? Really not trying to be unhelpful here but you don't sound terribly happy and it's a shame. Your baby is only a baby once and your happiness is IMPORTANT!

Kym's Challenge said...

Hi I'm a lurker and would be disappointed if your quit your blog, I so love reading about Rachel and seeing the pictures. You need to do what is right for your family, but know that we care in blogland across the miles.
Take care.
Kym

Rachel said...

Do whatever you think is best for you.

Remember you can't do everything young lady!!!

Focus on your family and the weightloss will come when you are feeling more in control. I know it will be stressful going back to work but you will be amazed at how you will feel more in control when you are in a regular routine (ie. daycare, home, feed, bath, bed).

I would hate to see you stop blogging because your readers don't care if your not talking about weightloss, we much prefer hearing about that little princess of yours.

Remember its your blog and you can talk about whatever you want.